SPOILER
ALERT! The plot will be discussed.
Director
Richard Linklater has filmed movies over decades using the same actors and
actresses to add a feeling of reality to his fictional works. He did it with Boyhood and also in the trilogy that
started with Before Sunrise and ended
with Before Midnight. (Or will there
be more?). This 2004 entry, Before Sunset
happens to be my favorite one of this group, maybe because it deals
directly with Linklater’s theme of how writing a story borrows from reality,
transforms it, and makes permanent experiences in a work of art.
The
director and his stars, Ethan Hawke and Julie Delpy, kicked around the
possibility for a sequel for years, and then Delpy came up with forty pages of
dialogue that accelerated the project. It was rehearsed over two weeks and
filmed in about three weeks. So there was a long gestation period but a quick
birth here.
This
film is sort of a romantic version of the movie My Dinner with Andre, where two people just talk, but there is
nothing banal or superficial about the conversation. Here, however, the
chemistry between the two characters is more exciting and the scenery more
enjoyable. The film begins with establishing shots showing different parts of
Paris to ground us as to the location. The camera zeroes in on the Shakespeare
and Co. bookshop where Jesse Wallace (Hawke) is doing a reading from his book
entitled This Time. The story starts
during a Q&A which began at 5:30 pm. So, the story unfolds in real time
just before sunset in the summertime. As IMDb notes, the bookstore is named
after the publishing house owned by Sylvia Beach who first published James
Joyce’s Ulysses. Of course, that
story also takes place during one day walking around a European city, as do the
first two films in this trilogy. Jesse’s novel is based on the single night he
spent nine years prior with Celine in Vienna (and to add to the accuracy of the
time span, the first film was made nine years prior).
Jesse
avoids the direct question about whether the book is autobiographical by
referencing author Thomas Wolfe who said we are the sum total of our
experiences and we see the totality of existence through our own personal
“keyhole.” So everything is autobiographical in that sense since it is tinted
by one’s own life. He says his own life did not have violence or international
intrigue or helicopter crashes, but he feels that his experiences have been
full of its own kind of drama. His statement mirrors what happens in Ulysses, since Joyce uses, as all great
authors do, everyday events to show the universality that exists in them.
As
Jesse talks, there are flashbacks to shots in the first film where he met
Celine (Delpy). He says he wrote his novel because he wanted to capture that
experience of meeting someone and really making a connection. His desire to
make palpable a meaningful bond established between people reflects one of the
most universal forces that drive humans. The female questioner asks
specifically did he meet a French girl on a train, and after he says it is not
important, he finally admits that is what happened. Someone notes that the book
ends on an “ambiguous note,” as did the first film, with the two characters
saying they would meet in Vienna again in six months. However, they did not
want to confine the agreement with exchanges of information since they wanted
the reunion to be purely voluntary without prodding on either party’s part.
This course of action was, of course, impractical. Jesse says he left what
would happen up to the reader. He says if you are a romantic you will say they
would meet again, if you’re a cynic, you say no, or maybe you at least hope
they would meet again. He won’t reveal what really happened because he feels
that would take the thrill out of the possibilities that the ending suggests.
His explanation is a good literary analysis of why the unresolved ending of the
first film is so effective.
He
is asked about what he might write next. He says that he would like to create a
book that takes place during the length of a pop song. (This idea also sounds
Joycean). There would be a guy who has a good job and a beautiful wife, but he
has thought of himself as an adventurer looking for meaning, and that
“happiness is in the doing,” not in obtaining. So, the character is totally
depressed about his current life. As we learn later, this possible plot could
reflect on Jesse himself when he tells Celine of his life after he left her in
Vienna. It turns out that she has been the inspiration that helped him explore
what is important to him in his story. The character in this proposed novel sees
his daughter dancing to a pop song and that makes him travel mentally back to
when he was a youth with a girl who also danced and they had lost their
virginity together. The man is living in both moments simultaneously. As Jesse
relates his tale, there are flashbacks of Celine’s cherubic face. Jesse is an
older person wanting to recapture that feeling of youth’s hopeful possibility.
Since these two times fold into themselves, Jesse says that “time is a lie,”
since, through memory, we can exist in different periods and not be confined by
the present. There is then a shot of Celine, who has entered the bookshop.
Jesse sees her, is stunned, and the past merges with the present, just like in
his proposed story, just as reality and fiction join. He goes on to say that
“inside every moment is another moment,” so we are constantly experiencing new
and old times together, as Jesse and Celine now are.
Jesse
is supposed to leave for the airport because Paris is his last stop, and, in a
way, it is also his last chance at that meaningful life. Celine asks when does
he have to be at the airport and Jesse is told his deadline is 7:30. So, they
do not have much time, which adds to the importance of every moment they spend
together. Jesse gets a card from his driver, Phillipe (Diabolo), so he can call
to pick him up to catch his plane. The beginning of their reunion is awkward,
with neither Jesse nor Celine knowing how to begin their interaction. He does
want to spend some time with her so they go for coffee. He admits that he
almost “lost it” when he saw her. She says it’s her favorite bookstore and saw
that he was going to be there. She had read an article about his book and she
jokingly says, “it sounded vaguely familiar.” They move around the city as the
film progresses, which mirrors what happened in Vienna, which becomes a sort of
symbolic journey of rediscovery of themselves and their significance to each
other. She read his book twice, and she says it is well written, even though
she doesn’t usually like romantic stories. It is an ironic statement, since she
is in one, but it is not the typical melodramatic, sentimental type. Theirs is
an intense, intellectual, passionate romantic tale that surprisingly never has
the man and woman kiss. So, overt physical acts are not needed to show the true
feelings of affection in this relationship.
Celine
feels that she must ask him before they go any further if he showed up in
Vienna as they had planned. Obviously she did not if she asks the question. To
avoid making her feel guilty, Jesse says no. She is relieved, and says she
couldn’t meet him because her grandmother died on December 16, the day when
they were to meet, six months after they said goodbye. She is surprised Jesse
remembered her grandmother lived in Budapest, but then recalls that fact is in
the book, and that everything about their meeting is in the novel, which shows
the importance of that day to Jesse. But, in a way, by making their interaction
public, it could be taken as an invasion of her privacy. She says she planned
to fly to Vienna, but had to go to the funeral. Then she is upset because he
didn’t show. He then admits that he did, and she wonders if he hated her all
this time. He kids by saying his life took a “nosedive” after she didn’t
appear. They both agree that they should have exchanged contact information.
They didn’t even know each other’s last names. Jesse implies that they didn’t
want to dissipate the exhilaration of that first meeting with anti-climactic
phone calls or written contacts, and just wanted to pick up where they had left
off. Their impractical decision sounds like it is made of the stuff of young,
romantic love.
She
shows some jealousy after he says he stayed a couple of days in Vienna by
asking if he met another girl. He says yes, her name was Gretchen and the
book’s character is a composite of the two of them. He again is kidding, and
says he actually posted signs with his contact information at the train station
where they said goodbye in case she was delayed. This admission shows how much
he wanted to see her again. She wonders why he didn’t write in the book that
the “French bitch” didn’t show up. He said he wrote an ending where she did,
they are passionate together, but eventually realized it wouldn’t work out. She
says that was a good ending, being more real for her, which hints at how she
has become more pessimistic about relationships. But, he says that the editor
didn’t like the ending, because, as Celine says, happy love endings sell
better, so the chance of happiness is more what people want. The implication is
that people desire the dream to come true, so they vicariously get that
idealized happy conclusion in their fiction. And that was what these two also
wanted nine years earlier in their real lives. But, one night together can be
exhilarating in the excitement of first discovery, but long-term relationships
can become boring and disappointing. So, they are individuals that meet in
brief, hopeful encounters while at the same time exploring, and in a way
fearing, the possibility of subsequent disappointment that their life
experiences have taught them.
She
says that he made her seem neurotic in his book, but he says she is, but then
says he is kidding again. He often pretends that her suspicions have a basis
and then admits to only teasing her. She says “it’s both flattering and
disturbing at the same time,” to have a character based on oneself, implying
that even though it is good to feel that one is worth writing about, it also
exposes, and possibly through fiction, warps, one’s personal reality.
Celine
works for an environmental outfit that deals with international law involving
planetary ecology, including setting limitations on any kind of chemical
warfare. She has been “doing” things in an ongoing way, which he said at the
bookshop is the way one enjoys happiness and finds purpose. He, on the other
hand, has written about something that happened one night in the past. She went
to India working on a water-treatment plant. He says he just goes around
complaining but not doing anything to rectify problems. He says that despite
global warming and America being a consumer nation, he feels things may be
getting better. Here is their first confrontation, but it is a meaningful one.
She says that the world is a mess, moving industry to developing nations to
exploit cheap labor in places that are free from pollution laws, resulting in
deaths from contaminated water. Jesse says the world is bad because he can’t
find an Asian publisher. But after that joke, he says that at least people are
becoming aware of the ecological and financial situations and are fighting
back. She says that his optimism may be dangerous if an imperialist country
uses that argument as a way of placating people while plundering the world. Is
his positive perspective due to him sitting on the sidelines, removed from
being in the trenches in which she is fighting?
They
go into a cafe and he continues to say maybe the world is progressing the way
individuals evolve. He personalizes change by saying he was wracked with
insecurity when younger, but he is older, and although maybe now problems are
deeper, he is more equipped to deal with them (which is not accurate, as we
learn later). So even though he hints at some present turmoil, he backs off
from talking about it when she asks. Instead, he says he doesn’t really have
any problems and is just happy to be there. He says he wishes there were more
places like this cafe in the U. S. She says casually that she looked for them
while she lived in America. He is shocked, and she admits that she was studying
at NYU from ‘96 to ‘99. He is devastated since he has been living in New York
since ‘98. The realization that he could have been so close to seeing Celine
again makes it difficult to say goodbye to her as the movie goes on.
She
finished her master’s degree and her visa ran out, so she returned to France.
But what really made her want to leave the U. S. was all the gang violence,
murders, and serial killers she would hear about. The final straw was when she
heard a noise on her fire escape and called 911. Two officers arrived, and one had to leave to
move the cop car. The cop who remained asked if she had a gun. She said no, and
he said she should think about getting one, because, “This is America, not
France.” She told the cop she didn’t know anything about guns. He pulled his
out of the holster and held it up, saying she better learn because one day a
gun like his will be in her face and she’ll have to choose between her or the
other person. Her paranoia made her apply for a gun, then thought better of it,
which implies that this fear is a kind of madness that subverts reason. Her
story epitomizes the difference between the American preoccupation with, and
fear of, gun violence, and the modern European aversion for armed conflict,
which is possibly because the countries in Europe were the battlefields on
which world wars were fought.
Celine
says, on the positive side, in America there are happy greetings between
citizens, while Parisians are grumpy. She also says that Parisian men don’t
really have much of a sex drive. There is more humor when Jesse says he’s proud
to be an American in that respect. At this point sex is brought up
tangentially. She goes on to say that when she went to Warsaw it was very
gloomy, but being away from the TV and commercial distractions, she was able to
feel relaxed, “at peace,” away from the “frenzy,” and could write in her
journal (he jokes about her writing communist thoughts, and she says she will
send him to a gulag). Her recounting of her time in Poland again stresses how
her European attitude is different than the American desire to focus on
acquiring things to make people happy.
He
changes the subject by saying it was difficult to believe it was nine years ago
that they walked around Vienna. She now moves the conversation to personal
issues. She asks if she looks differently. He jokes by saying he would have to
see her naked, which introduces the topic of sex again. She says her hair is
not the same because she wore it down. She lets it flow around her shoulders,
which is also a flirtatious move. He says she looks thinner, and she responds
self-consciously about how he probably thought she was a “fatty,” indicating
her need to feel attractive. He says she looks beautiful, again moving the talk
into personal attraction. He asks about how he looks and she points out that he
has this crease between his eyes that she says looks like a scar. It is now his
turn to feel vulnerable as to his attractiveness to her, but she softens her
statement by saying she likes the facial wrinkle.
These
remarks lead to a discussion about getting older, and how that changes how one
views life. She comments on having a nightmare about being thirty-two and then
dreaming that she was the reverse, twenty-three, but then waking up and
realizing she really is thirty-two. This means her reality of aging is also her
nightmare. In contrast, he says he likes getting older, as life “feels more
immediate. Like I can appreciate things more,” probably because one wants to
savor the time left on earth. He gives an example of the different perspectives
felt when he was young and now later, being older. He says he was in a band
when he was a youth and that the emphasis was on the future and how they worked
to become known. But, now the band doesn’t exist, and when he looks back, the
time playing together was enjoyable, and he wishes he would have savored the
moment more instead of looking past the fun of the present experience. So, she
asks if he is “enjoying every minute” of his writing success and traveling
around Europe. He admits that he is not really practicing what he preaches as
he hasn’t been happy with the trip. She says in her job many are similarly
focused only on the goal and not celebrating the process. For example, in
Mexico, she and others were just trying to get pencils to rural school
students. There was satisfaction in actions that were not involved with, “big,
revolutionary ideas.” She adds, “But the reality of it is that the true work of
improving things is in the little achievements of the day.” His take on the
subject, as before, is more personal while she again stresses satisfaction by
acting on the behalf of others.
Even
though he relishes the idea, Jesse admits it is very difficult to live in the
moment. He seems always to be dissatisfied with the current situation, always
looking for improvement, which leads to another desire, implying it’s like
being on a treadmill, trying to move forward but not getting anywhere. But then
he acknowledges that “desire is the fuel of life,” so now he is contradicting
what he said about just living for the moment. She says it is true that not
desiring anything would be like depression. But, he says that’s what Buddhism
preaches, that you’ll find everything you need if you shed your wants.
Expressing an anti-Buddhist view, and now stressing her personal wants, Celine
admits that she wants to desire more than life’s bare essentials, whether it is
intimacy or new shoes. He counters, most likely dealing with his own
frustrations, by saying if one becomes angry because one is frustrated by not
getting what one feels they deserve, unhappiness results. He offers that life
is supposed to be hard and that we don’t learn without failures. But he is
possibly rationalizing about his lack of finding a satisfying life. In these
conversations we get what was mentioned earlier about finding the universal
through the specific.
Because
of his frustration over the conversation about getting and not achieving
desires, Celine asks if Jesse has become a Buddhist. He says no, and she says
she decided a while back not to buy into just one way of thinking, and be open
to everything. But, he did spend time in a monastery (showing his desire to
explore spirituality) and was surprised to find those living there were not
life-denying but could laugh and were “very attuned to everything.” He says
that they were not “trying to hustle anybody,” presumably not looking for
personal gain, and were simply “trying to live and die in peace with God.” This
statement goes back to desire and he says how so many people are always looking
to “get somewhere better,” whether it is “to make more cash, get a little more
respect,” and their lives are exhausting. He seems to accept the need for
desire, but not to the point that the failure to satisfy those drives makes one
miserable and one can’t enjoy anything in the moment. His argument seems to be
that when personal wants are overemphasized, it’s like digging oneself into a
hole and not being able to escape. He does seem to be looking for a spiritual
answer to the dilemma, and she seems content to not look in one place for all
the answers.
She
then brings the discussion to a carnal end when she undermines his talk about
spirituality with the fact that her handsome ex-boyfriend went to Asian
Buddhist monasteries where monks there are supposed to work toward extinguishing
desire, and instead the men wanted to perform oral sex on him. After they
laugh, he acknowledges that what Celine does in her life is worthwhile. She
twists his comment toward a sexual meaning, asking does he mean her performing
fellatio, and he says no, in her job. That is where she puts her “passion into
action,” he says, but that statement can also have a sexual undertone to it.
Jesse
doesn’t want his time with Celine to end, and continues to walk around Paris
with her to recreate their previous time together, which he did in his book,
and now wants to do in real life. Despite what he said, he doesn’t really like
his present, and finds joy in what he found before with her. After the talk
about the negativity of being consumers, she says, ironically, that it is
shopping day in Paris where things are on sale. So, he comically says they
should go shopping, which she says she wouldn’t inflict on him, and they go to
a park instead. But, she says that sometimes she may not buy anything when she
goes to stores, but just likes to try on clothes. That is sort of like living
in the moment, enjoying without acquiring, without the need to permanently own
things.
He
says that her shopping without buying is a strategy a therapist would approve,
even though he is no authority, not being in therapy himself. She jokingly asks
if therapy would help with his sexual problems, bringing the topic back to the
physical. He says the two of them “didn’t have any problems,” which narrows the
topic of conversation to their attraction to each other. She says she’s kidding
about saying he has sexual issues, and it doesn’t apply to them because they
didn’t even have sex. He is amazed that she doesn’t seem to remember that they
were intimate, which is not only a hit to his ego, but also because it
diminishes the special time they spent together. She says that he couldn’t get
a condom and that is why nothing happened. He says he even remembers the brand
of condom. She says she wrote about their time in her journal, so she’ll check
it, which is obviously very upsetting to him that she must do research on
something so important. She says he is idealizing their time together, as he did
in his book. She does concede that maybe it did happen, but she may have filed
it away, because some things are better off forgotten. This statement hurts him
more because it sounds like it was an unpleasant experience. She offers a
convoluted explanation that it could be that when their scheduled reunion
became associated with the death of her grandmother, that sad event may have
blotted out happy associations with him. She tries to soften the blow by saying
she cried because she would never see her grandmother again, and thought maybe
she would never see Jesse again.
They
follow up the discussion by talking about memories and how inaccurate they may
be. She invented one about someone exposing himself to her when she was a
child, but it didn’t happen, and just sprang from her mother’s warning about
dirty old men. This story leads to Celine saying how impressionable children
are, and that despite now being less naive, she hasn’t changed much since she
was a child at her core. Jesse believes people don’t really change, despite
protestations to the contrary. He says that “we have these innate set points,”
which doesn’t allow for change to one’s disposition. He says a study found that
people who were optimistic or miserable stayed that way whether they won the
lottery or became paraplegics. He is voicing a determinism here that he later
argues against and which she seems to then embrace concerning their fates.
Getting
back to individual desire, she says that she would like to paint, write more
songs, and learn Chinese. But, she says that she ends up, “doing not much,”
which many people can identify with. He moves again toward wanting something
more spiritual out of life. But her answer is “no” to believing in ghosts,
reincarnation, or God. Although she seems to be at odds with him on this topic,
she does admit to some belief in the magical and quotes Einstein, who
supposedly said that if you didn’t believe in something magical or mysterious
you were “as good as dead,” a statement Jesse agrees with.
He
again talks about the importance of living in the moment because they could die
at anytime. She asks what would they do if this was their last day on earth. He
says that he would not talk about personal things like his book, or even about
long term problems like the environment, probably because that would lead into
a future that doesn’t exist for them anymore. But, picking up on the previous
conversation, he would want to discuss the “magic in the universe,” since most
likely it would make him feel some type of connection to the universal. But, he
then expresses his desire for her because he says he may want to have these
lofty discussions but in a hotel room where they would indulge in repeated
bouts of lovemaking. She plays along about why wait to go to a hotel room and
just do it on the park bench they are passing. He whisks her to the bench and
onto his lap. She realizes how her flirting stoked his libido, and quickly says
they are not going to die today, and shyly slips off his lap, dampening the
passion she is afraid will lead to painful disappointment later.
Celine
tries to divert the conversation but her mind is on sex, too. Her conversation
deals with how one can become emotionally hurt if there is no good
communication between a couple concerning intimacy. She says that a friend of
hers had problems in bed with her boyfriend, and when she told him how to
please her more, he became upset. Celine says men are very fragile when their
sexual expertise is questioned. Her talk brings up that fear of how relationships
have trouble in the long run. She says that her friend wanted to make up a
written questionnaire to determine a man’s sexual inclinations ahead of time to
avoid problems later. Celine says one question would be whether there was a
liking for S&M, or just a little spanking. Jesse asks if one question would
be about a preference for talking “dirty?” She says the question should be
about specific words. She then brings the conversation back to the two of them.
She says what words would he like, and in answer to her question, Jesse says he
likes the word, “pussy.” She, a bit embarrassed, yet with a smile, suggesting
she is pleased, says, “Good.”
Jesse
didn’t know about Celine’s musical interests and asks what kind of songs does
she write, and wants her to sing one. She refuses because she doesn’t have her
guitar. He jokingly asks that should they meet here in the park in six months
with her guitar, and adds she may or may not show up. They laugh, but she
diffuses the sexual tension by reminding him he has to catch his flight as she
suggests that they head back to the bookstore by walking along the Seine.
The
story, which seemed to be heading to these two finally getting together, adds a
twist when Celine says that she read that Jesse is married with a four year old
child, and she says she is involved with a photojournalist who is on the road a
great deal. There is again humor when he asks if she has children and she says
she has two kids, but she just remembered she left them in the car six months ago.
She does say that even though she doesn’t have any offspring, she hopes one day
to be a mother, which inserts a positive view toward wanting a family despite
her cynicism regarding relationships. He wants to go on one of the boats that
cruise along the Seine. He only has fifteen more minutes as the deadline for
anything happening between these two draws near. She has a cell phone and he
has the driver’s number, so he calls Phillipe and tells him to go to the next
stop (which is translated as “Henry IV.” Jesse’s son is named Henry and he is
four years old, which is a sort of nod to destiny playing a role in his being
in Paris). They see the Cathedral of Notre Dame, which seems sad to us given
the recent fire, especially since Celine says that the great cathedral will be
gone one day, almost foreshadowing the recent catastrophe. There used to be
another church there at the same location, so her comments reflect on the
transience of existence. That is why making the most of the present moments is
important, which echoes the plots of these movies.
Jesse
agrees with the desire to fight the destructive effects of time when he says
that writing his book was like constructing a building, fitting in the
memories, sort of like building blocks, as a reminder of their time spent
together, so he would not be able to forget the details. It is thus implied
that his book could stand independent of his mortal self. She says that his
intention was admirable because many people seem to act as if relationships are
disposable. She then reveals something about herself, which is that each of the
people she became involved with had some special qualities about them, and she
feels as if she was damaged by losing those unique parts of those men when she
broke up with them. She shows her vulnerability and fear of being hurt again
when she says, “I’m very careful with getting involved.” She says as a child
she marveled at the shadow a leaf cast or ants crossing along a path. It is the
same with people, as she becomes fascinated by the smallest things about them
and will always miss them if she no longer has those people in her life. For
her, everyone has beautiful, unique details. She recalls when they were in
Vienna she noticed bits of red in his beard and the sun picking up those highlights
just before he left her. Her words emphasize the enjoyment of the moment and
how that appreciation sometimes is almost immediately taken away.
He
admits that he finally realizes why he wrote his book. He hoped that she would
come to a reading in Paris and they could meet again. (Another interesting fact
that IMDb notes, and which shows how storytellers use their lives as source
material, is that director Linklater walked around Philadelphia in 1989 talking
with a woman one night. He made Before
Sunrise hoping to reconnect with that woman, as Jesse wrote his book to
once again meet Celine in this film. Unfortunately he later discovered that she
died in a motorcycle accident just before he began working on Before Sunrise. Did he make these films
to experience in his art what he was denied in his life?). Celine then almost
humorously says that they are really characters in a fictional story, so they
had to meet again, suggesting that is what romantic stories require. Of course
the irony is that is the truth, because they really are characters in a story.
He bemoans the fact that she couldn’t show up in Vienna for their meeting,
because he believes their lives would then be different. She says they may have
hated each other eventually, that maybe they are only good for brief encounters
(a reference to the movie of a similar name?), “walking around European cities,
in warm climate (it wouldn’t work out well cinematically if these tales were in
winter, which points to the contrivance of imaginative tales).
She
says that the way things happened was inevitable. “It was meant to be that
way,” she says. He questions her fatalism, which may be a form of
rationalization on her part. He points out how things would have been different
if, by chance, her grandmother died at a slightly different time. But, she is
probably stating that there is no point in dwelling on what might have been,
since they can’t change the past. He says things are just off with them and
should have gone differently. Before his marriage he thought about her a great
deal, and on the way to his wedding he thought he saw her on a corner near
Broadway with an umbrella near a deli. She admits that she actually lived only
two blocks from that corner, so it actually could have been her, which he probably
interprets as a sign that they have just missed being together.
She
asks about his marriage. Jesse says they met in college, their relationship was
on and off, but she became pregnant, and they married. He reports this
information like he is just stating facts, without much emotion. He sounds as
if he is feeling distant from his own life. When asked, he says his wife is “a
great teacher, a good mom. She’s smart, pretty.” His flat delivery feels like
he’s stating items on a resume. He shares that he had this “idea of my best
self” that he says he wanted to live up to. That idea may have “been overriding
my honest self,” about what he really wanted. He thought he had to commit, meet
his responsibilities, that love was “respect, trust, admiration.” He says he
felt those things, but what he leaves out is passion, excitement, chemistry.
But now he feels he is running a “nursery” with someone he “used to date,” and
is like a “monk” and “had sex less than ten times in the last four years.” She
jokingly gets him to admit that is more sex than most monks have.
After
they get off the boat, she points out that it’s only natural that his wife gave
most of her energy to the child, and how could we function if we stayed in the
constant state of aroused sexual energy. Celine says jokingly we would get
“aneurysms.” She points out that he would not have had time to write his book.
But he says it is not just about the absence of sex in his marriage. He is most
likely referring to how special people we know act like amplifiers of life,
enhancing our own existence, and those are the people we long to be connected
to. She says a therapist friend of hers says that many couples are “confused
lately.” She thinks it may have something to do with shifting gender roles. Men
feel as if they must still be providers, and independent women, such as
herself, just need a man to love, who doesn’t also have to financially support
her. The implication is possibly men haven’t adjusted to this fact.
They
meet his driver and she says it is time to say goodbye. We, of course, don’t
want that to happen, and neither does Jesse. He wants to give her a ride home,
and the driver agrees. While they are in the car, she says she has not
romanticized her love life anymore because it lessens her pain if things don’t
work out. He suggests that may be why she currently is involved with someone
who is away so much. She expresses her mixed feelings about long-term
commitments. She likes being around her photographer lover, and misses him when
he initially leaves, but when somebody is always around, she feels it is
suffocating. He points out the contradictions she is expressing. She says that
she’s better off alone instead of being next to a lover and feeling lonely
anyway. Many people can relate to feeling solitary in a sterile relationship.
She says that she had many “blah” relationships, with “no real connection or
excitement.” She has become cynical, and seems to be down on the fairy-tale
notion of living happily ever after.
He
asks if her love life is really that bad. What follows serves as the climax of
the movie. She finally lets down her guard. She seems angry probably because it
really is “that bad” for her. She tells him, “I was fine until I read your
fucking book.” She says how it stirred up things, reminding her how “genuinely
romantic I was, how I had so much hope in things.” Now she feels terrible
because it seems like everything after their time together has been a
disappointment. She most likely has become used to not expecting much out of
the men she is with, but now his book and him being there has reminded her of
what she has lost, what she has had to settle for. She says that it’s like she put all of her
romanticism into that one night, and he took it all away from her. She rants
about how all of her ex’s went with her, then broke up with her, and eventually
all of them went on to get married. They then call her and thank her for
teaching them what love is, for helping them understand women. It’s as if, she
believes, that she has helped others find the happiness she can’t obtain. She
may not have wanted to marry these men, but they didn’t even ask her, implying
that she wasn’t even worthy of being considered. She is crying now and he wants
to console her, but she in inconsolable.
She
demands to stop the car so she can get out, and yells that she must get away
from Jesse. He tries to touch her, but she brushes him away. He is able to
persuade her to stay in the car. He says that he is very happy to see her and
that she didn’t forget him. She counters by telling him that he comes to Paris,
acting romantic, but he is married, which, of course, just adds to her torture.
He says that she is making it seem that the time in Vienna was so important,
but she didn’t even remember having sex. She now admits that “of course I
remembered,” as she allows herself to be vulnerable by showing how important
that night was for her, too. In fact, she reminds him that they made love
twice, as she seems to have wanted to block out their intimacy to accommodate
her current lowering of expectations when it comes to men.
He
jokes that he still likes being with her even though she is neurotic. She
apologizes, saying she is upset because she is “dying inside” and has become
“numb” when it comes to relationships. As she says, “I don’t feel pain or
excitement. I’m not even bitter.” He now reverses his earlier superficial
statement that his life is fine. He tells Celine his life is unhappy all the
time. He has been in marriage counseling, bought self-help books, and tried to spice
up the love life in the marriage. He says that he can’t love his wife the way
she should and deserves to be loved. He only feels good when he is with his
son, but “there is no joy or laughter” in his home. He says he has dreams of
her whizzing by him in a train as he stands on the platform, which reminds us
of their leaving each other in Vienna. He also has a dream of her being
pregnant as they lie in bed and he touches her against her objections, as hope
and disappointment mix in his illusion. He earlier reached out his arm to
comfort her, but withdrew, implying a desire to become close but afraid of
either being too close in that gesture of intimacy, or getting rejected. She
now repeats the gesture toward him, also tentative about touching him in a tender
fashion. He admits that he, too, may have given up on romantic love, just as
she has, after they failed to follow-up on their chance nine years ago when she
didn’t show up as they planned. She says that she now realizes his personal
life is worse than hers, and he made her feel better for being so miserable. He
says sadly, but humorously, that he’s glad his world is “good for something.”
She says she really doesn’t wish her bad chances of having a happy family on
others. He reassures her that she will be a great mother (a hint of what’s to
come?).
As
she believes he is about to leave, she now hugs him lovingly, but he doesn’t
want to let her go. Jesse tells the driver he will walk Celine to her
apartment, which is in a lovely courtyard where the neighbors are having a
cookout. She has a sweet cat for a pet, and you can see why it would be
difficult for Jesse to leave such a welcoming place. He wants her to play him
one of her songs despite her reminding him of his flight deadline. They go up
the staircase to her apartment quietly, seriously looking at each other, like
they are coming home together. He tells her to play the waltz she says she
wrote. It is a beautiful song and her voice is lovely (It’s called “A Waltz for
a Night,” which should have won an Oscar, and Delpy wrote other songs for the
film). It is about a “one-night stand” that she will never forget, and how no
one will mean as much to her even though her lover is now far away. She sings
that she just wants one more chance to make their love work. Jesse’s name is in
the song. He asks afterwards did she just plug his name in, and she says of
course, and asks could he really think she wrote the song for him. We don’t
learn the truth, but it is interesting to suspect that maybe her song is the counterpart
to his novel, as they both found their short time together was the best they
ever felt, and long for more.
She
makes tea as he looks at actual old photos of Delpy and her grandmother. He
plays a live recording of Nina Simone. The song playing is “Just in Time,”
which is appropriate for these two, finding each other before their chance to
reignite their affection runs out. Celine loves Simone’s music and saw her in
person. She imitates her slow sashaying and talking to the audience. As she
moves like Simone, she then states the obvious: “Baby, you are gonna miss that
plane.” He is good with that, and the last lines are, “I know.” He finally does
“know” where he should be.
As
the first film ends, we don’t know what’s in store for these two. But, you can
find out if you haven’t already seen Before
Midnight. But that title indicates that if you pass that one twenty-four-hour
period, maybe the carriage becomes a pumpkin again, and life may never be so
magical as it once was. Time can be the worst of spoilers.
The
next film is Nightcrawler.